I think it's time to clear the air. You see, I have been living with this lie for some time now and I want to get it off my chest. Actually I was born this way. Many times people wanted to change me, especially my teachers. They said being this way would ruin my life. But bless my mom, she wouldn't let them change me. She said, let him be, if God wanted him to be different he would have made him different. (I loved her for that.)

Sometimes guys would make fun of me or let me know they knew I was "that" way. I would ask them, how do you know? They would say, it's all in the hand movements.

When I went to college, I decided to make sure this would not get in the way, so I lied about myself. I pretended to be what I was not. I often had nightmares about being discovered, so I got drunk a lot. Then I didn't care.

Later on in therapy, my psychiatrist suggested that we get this out in the open. My father and my significant other were invited to a meeting, my mother was also but she was busy and could not come, besides she already knew.

When I told them my father said, I don't understand what this all means or how you could have kept this a secret for so long but you are my son and I will always love you no matter what. (Loved him for that)

My significant other said, my God, if you go telling everyone what you are we will probably have to move, You know we live in a restricted apartment. (we separated shortly thereafter)

Now I come to you, Having known you for only a short period of time, I feel confident in sharing myself with you. I know you will respond with love and the support that I need. You see, oh this is soooo hard.

Let me say it quickly and get it over with. Here goes. I'm - I'm - I'm Mexican American and left handed. There, I've said it and I'm proud.

Since I was tall and fairly light olive, I could pass for Italian, especially since I worked real hard to get rid of any accent. I also learned to use both hands and would make off color jokes about being bi-sexual to hide my embarrassment on being left handed.

Someone said, I thought this was about your sexual orientation. I said no. I'm very comfortable being who I am. This is just to show you if you are quick to pass judgment and make hasty conclusions. If so, you need to address this.

Of course, I don't mean this in a bad way.