Once upon a time, I believed that illness was a punishment for some negative action in my past. It was God's way of keeping score on who did good and who did not. Intellectually this seemed reasonable and logical. I sat in judgment of others that were sick and reminded them of past mistakes that had caused their illness.

It was another story when I personally got seriously ill. As hard as I tried to find my past mistake, these was none. Even when I invented some mistake and tried to correct it, the healing did not take place.

Caroline Myss help me change my thinking about illness. I now see illness as an opportunity to change a thinking pattern that is causing me pain. When I interrupt my thinking pattern because "I am too sick to even think" the pain subsides and oftentimes disappears.

If I permanently change this thinking pattern, I say that I am healed. If I go back to my old thinking pattern, the pain returns and I claim that I was not healed.

There have been tremendous "changes" in my physicality with this new change in thinking about illness. My pain is going away and my body is healing itself. Go figure. You can say I am being heale