I also have had 3 clinically documented NDE from 92 - 94. Each time I was sent back much to my distress and against my will. All for the same reason - I had not completed my mission in this life.

The first time I assumed that it was to save the planet. After all, I had come back from the dead. When saving the planet didn't work I gave up and willed myself to die. When I came back again, I consulted every wise teacher and sage I could find to get my life's mission. I chose restructuring organized religion as my best option. So when that didn't work I died again.

Before I came back the third time, I decided to ask God what my mission was.

I was told I must find personal happiness.

It has taken me four years just to define for myself what personal happiness means. I've been living it for about 2 weeks. As you can see by the changes in my posts.

I did not become intuitive or psychic as a result of NDE. My benefits have just started. I forgave myself. I honor myself. I love myself. I gave up being vicious, self sabotaging and superior - inferior to others. It will take a lifetime to learn all my lessons and yet I am ready to go right now.

I no longer fear death because we do not die, we only change form or in holographic terms we merely refocus our laser beams and appear somewhere else. Fear of death is actually more difficult than the experience itself. Dying is painless - resisting letting go is what hurts.